True Sad Ending-Love Story

10th grade.

As i sat there in english class. i stared at the girl next to me. she was my so called bestfriend. i stared at her long,silky hair and wish she was mine. but she didnt notice me like that and i knew it. after class,she walked up to me and asked me for the notes that she had missed the day before and i handed them to her. She said "thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. i wanted to tell her and let her know that i dont want to be just friends. i love her but im just too shy and i dont know why.

11th grade.

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears,mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart. She asked me to come over because she didnt want to be alone. So i did. As i sat next to her on the sofa, i stared at her soft eyes,wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one drew barrymore movie and 3 bags of chips. She decided to go to sleep. She looked at me,said "thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her,i want her to know that i dont want to be just friends. I love her but im just too shy and i dont know why.

Senior year.

The day before prom. She walked to my locker. "my date is sick" she said. ; he's not going to go well. I didnt have a date,and in 7th grade,we made a promise that if neither of us had dates,we would go together just as 'bestfriend'.so we did. Prom night,after everything was over i was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me with her crystal eyes. I wanted her to be mine,but she didnt think of me like that and i knew it. Then she said," i had the best time,thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her,i want her to know that i dont want to be just friends. I love her but im just to shy and i dont know why.

Graduation day.

A day passed,then a week then a month. Before i could blink it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on the stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine but she didnt notice me like that and i knew it. Before everyone went home,she came to me in her smock and hat and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said "youre my bestfriend! Thanks," and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her , i want her to know that i dont want to be just friends, i love her but im just too shy and i dont know why.

A few years later.

Now i sit in the pews of church,that girl is getting married now. I watched her say " i do" and drive off to her new life,married to another man. I wanted her to be mine but she didnt see me like that and i knew it. But before she drove away,she came to me and said "you came!" she said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek. I wanted to tell her,i wanted her to know that i dont want to be just friends,i love her but im just too shy and i don't know why.

Funeral.

Years passed,i looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my bestfriend. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read ;

" i stare him wishing he was mine, but he doesnt notice me like that and i know it. I want to tell him , i want him to know that i dont want to be just friends. I love him but im too shy and i dont know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! "

i wish i did too. I thought to myself and i cried.

~Doushite Kimi Wo Suki Ninatte Shimattan Darou~

~Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattandarou~

~Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wo zutto~

Koko ni iru to omotetta noni~

~Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi~

~Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattandarou~

~Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi~

~Afuredasu kotoba wakatteta noni~

~Mou todoukanai~

~Hajimete deatta sono hikara~

~Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shitanda~

~Amari ni shizen ni tokikonde shimatta futari~

~Doko ni iku nori mo isshou de~

~Kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de~

~Bokura wa futari de otonaninatte kita~

~Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi~

~Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattandarou~

~Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wo zutto~

~Koko ni iru to omotteta noni~

~Mou kaerenai~

~Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo~

~Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo~

~Kirei na sugata de kami sama ni negatteru kimi wo~

~Boku janai hito no tonari de~

~Shukufukusareteru sugata wo~

~Boku wa douyatte miokureba ii no darou~

~Mou doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattandarou~

~Ano koro no bokura no kokoro~

~Mou modoranai~

~Kangaeta (mou modoranai) kangaeta~

~Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattandarou~

~Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wo zutto~

~Boku no yuko ni iru hazu datta~

~Sono mama ni~

~Sore demo kimi ga boku no soba hanareteite mo~

~Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto~

~Tada negatteru~

~Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo~

~Sabishikutemo~

Vampire!

Ice cold stare,

Yet flaming eyes,

Soul of darkness,

Pain inside.

Blackened heart,

Angered mood,

Evil spirit,

In Devil’s shoes.

Hope destroyed,

Faith no more,

Destiny shattered,

Life a void.

Nights are endless,

The thirst grows,

Life is pointless,

Craving for gore.

Innocent blood,

The search begins,

The taste of flesh,

Ecstasy within.

Life in shadows,

Never seen,

Striking swiftly,

Senses are keen.

Eternity alone,

Love is a tale,

Dreams don’t exist,

Hope is a fable.

Death in its mind,

Suffering huge,

Nothing to gain,

Nothing to lose.

Maybe psychotic,

Probably deranged,

Mostly disturbed,

Poisoned brain.

Future a blur,

Time will tell,

Eternity on earth,

Forever in hell.

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Waaaaaah..my blog is still empty like space! =O

hahahah..yaaah..still dont know what to blablablablabling about oh..

but but nanti full ne my blog~ ;D

Hmmm..

hmm..

hm.

boring juaaaaaa ohhhh blogging time speechless ane..

hohooooo!~

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so..right now..nuthn much to do..

currently..im listening to ummm..

DBSK's Song..

dat is..

" I'll be there "

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Ahhhh..

Ryokaiii..

Til here then,

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Ja Matane Minna~

'ZephyrS,

Hellooooooh Earthlings!~

Wew!~

Soo..this is my first time..blogging, haha..

Hmmmmmmm~

nothing much to say for the moment..

since..Im really new to blog..

I juz wanna sakai2 1st la~

and i havnt survey everything dlm blog ane..

need at least..1 week ??

i dunnoe~

Ah..Yokai..

til here then,

*Speechless pnya case* =X

Ja Ne Minna~ ^-^/